Strangers again

Everything starts from a "Hi, i am ...." It began from strangers where we were coursemates. Exchanging glances and even some fond feeling came by eventually. We evolved to be couples where You who are whom I loved. Everything where we had our first in our a relationship. First time holding hands, first kiss, first hug. It was just a pleasant moment where sometimes we hope time would just stop there. Eventually ups and downs we began to experience; testing our relationship. Even though LOVE itself was not shown through words or actions, the heart kept hold to it. Its funny how can one relationship could just deteriorate like that. From strangers to friends, to couples and back to strangers again. So ironic isn't it? There are ways to let go, but there's no way to just forget someone. In times, key phrases, flashing memories, places we used to go, were all just part of my life. It was soon we lost contact gradually just like a tree losing all its leaves. It was just matter of time when I found out you have moved on. It then lead me to your blog, a simple message in english knowing i m illiterate in mandarin :-) We are looking for improvements in future arent we? I don't know whether you are reading this but "CONGRATULATIONS to you and your BF:)"

Life

Life is isn't simple as we think? Life has been ups and downs for me during the past 4 months. Work and goals in life is all my direction for now. I believe Life is a journey not a race. Time move forward not backwards. Therefore, I hope this is applicable for her and myself. Instead of trying to forget her, I have decided to move on. We tried to give a chance to ourselves but the inevitable cannot be avoided. By all means, I checked out her updates from time to time and Felt happy if she finds new friends or even partner. The fact I can't comprehend her blog posts and I don't physically see her.. Gives me lots of wonder.. but I believe that being strong myself would eventually encourage her to stand again on her two feet... But all takes time for the heart, soul and mind to replenish once more... People have asked me, have i regretted dating you in the first place? No.. no and no.. I'm probably the one person you detest and hate so much but.. If there's one day, I heard or saw that you are newly attached with happiness. I would feel happy for yah for you deserve it...

the irreversible

well, it seems things have gone irreversible. Responses have shown that the problems existed and neither of us have come together into a conclusion. Situations and moments of time are revealing that it's time to really move on. With regards to that, it is time to face the reality of the working world. I'm still waiting on for call outs of interview and hope for the best. I have absolutely nothing but wish YOU the best of luck and pray hard that you will find happiness with someone else in the future.

Another chance

Its really "early" here but I have to work on some project to study about. Still, this matter has bothered me since the first day of my leave. I started to collect my thoughts and said, "This is it", I have come this far in time and place. I had to say I was a fool before, but I' m not going to be another fool this time. Things which I realized or did not before was in the past but I want to make up for it. It has been not too long since we broke up but it gave me sufficient time to reflect on things. Mistakes that I did unto her and I admit it for my stupidity. I really hope its not too late now and I hope to tell her that to give ourselves another chance. A chance where I did not accomplish before. Instead of just hoping, I'm putting it into action. I don't know what's exactly her feelings now but I know that I wouldn't want to regret miserably in the future.

christianity

Some people had misunderstandings of Christianity of being forceful and a "RELIGION" you have to accept. People have argued on this issue as it concerns religious aspects. Personally, I felt this tends to be more a RELATIONSHIP and self experience is best to describe HIM. I have tried sharing to someone close to me before but she eventually declined. It breaks my heart as we cannot be in one yolk together as I wish for. Things have fall apart but I pray to God that I could put them together. Well, best get to bed, its church day tomorrow. Amen.

A life dream

It is an alien environment to live around here. new people, food consumption and habits which I don't usually carry out. Its "early" in the morning but yet I find myself, just woke up from a dream. A dream where it might happen or not. Going on this journey has widened my eyes and point of view in different perspectives. If I have another chance to make things right, things would be different. It isn't easy letting go but otherwise for remembering the moments.

My story

Its been a while since I last blogged,I still remember vividly that our beginning, middle stage of our relationship are all recorded here. Unfortunately, this is the end of our relationship. Reading at her blog posts just reminds us of our sufferings. My feelings remain the same but it was nothing but a negative consequent. In my thoughts, did I really treated her with a bad intention? On one's perspective this relationship from the beginning was a failure but I try to save it at its best way. Its challenging for two person of different characteristics and worlds of their own come together as one. I have to say it's been filled with love and excitement.From the very start till now, I have not thought that you are a bad person, unqualified girlfriend for me, but I try to be that perfect guy for you. I don't feel continue writing the bad endings of our story but just remember the good bits of it. I don't know about you regretting accepting me as your boyfriend but i treasure you along with the memories at heart. Last but not least, thank you so much for the care and love you have gave and sorry for pain and inconvenience. Goodbye and best of luck, love lots, Aaron signing off. P/S crap i really forget my wretch.cc/blog/aarongan05 password. I shall blog here once again