Just For you~~

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The day when she gave me d necklace, my heart experienced an impact of shock and surprise. I would have never thought she would buy a couple's necklace for us~~
That short period of time when she was sneaking around, my curiosity was starting to develop as my heart was filled with anxiety~~~
Shortly, she wore the appealing necklace, a male’s symbol-like necklace with a light green flower as the main decoration and the phrase “I love you forever” around my neck while hers saying “me too”…
During that moment, I was mesmerized and touched by the precious gift which she had given to me; in addition, she even told me that she had waited for a stretched time to purchase that pair of necklace~~~
~~ Recently, she had shared with me her thoughts; stating two rules of hers which I respect~~~ Simultaneously, it had both positive and negative impact on me but my conscience and institution were telling me, it’s not the end but it was just the beginning. Therefore, to maintain our relationship, every wise decision and action to be taken are absolutely vital!!!~~~
~~~ Not long again, I had hurt another person’s heart ~~~
By right, she knows at present, my heart is filled with my darling already but still, a foolish gamble was taken by her~~ Why? You should know the consequences clearly if you had confessed and eventually asking me to leave my gf and to start off with you? you must be nuts~~~… I think I have stated this very clearly that once I LOVE a person, the flame never die which is residing within me.
I was thinking to myself, whether I should share this with my dear as it might be a sensitive issue for her~~~ who knows~~~ I had written this blog to express my hidden thoughts into words~~If by chance, when she sees this blog, I hope she could understand my situation and sincerity as I would do the same for her~~~
Aaron~~

A mirror

Looking at her right now burdens my heart occasionally as she is replica of me...
I would strongly agree that her character is very similar to mine...
That's another reason why the more I should help her..
My friend is in trouble; disturbed by her problems, uncertainties and worries...

As she was sharing with me just now, my mind flashed back those times when I once underwent similar situations with her...

All I can do now is to provide morale support and encouraging her to do whats right...
First and foremost, I'm happy enough as she confronted me previously to share her thoughts and problems.... and I'm overjoy to help in return..

Dun give up yeah~~!!! rmbr the qoutes I gave u and I hope deeply you find them useful... Hwaiting~~!!!

LIFE's a climb but the view is great~~~~

An angel.....

18/11
yahoo!!! Meeting her after 3 days of missing her was totally awesome! For the past few days, inevitably, my heart was filled with her image, wondering whether her health has improved as she had been sicked for the past few days previously.

I was accompanying her for the day in completion of her assignment and etc. We went to date later as usual... :)and even tried to find potential dresses for prom night. It was hard for her to find her right choice of dress but I think I will not ever forget when she put on her 1st dress. When she opened the fitting room's door and just stood prettily, my jaw just dropped in awe and amusement. I was thinking to myself" omg she's so pretty!" .....

19/11

Last day before she left for hometown... Having her in my company for the half day was my pleasure. Plus, I went for a haircut 2day.. sigh really cant stand the hot weather these days and the hairstylist was asking me "heh where's your gf?"while giving my hair a trim...

Not quite some time later, she came in unknowingly without my notice but the hairstylist realised and asked me "heh is that ur gf?" I just replied with smile and a big "YES"...

I dunno why but a sense of joy and achievement I was experiencing that moment...
We went to Ks house's later for house meeting while she was being herself in her own world as usual - facebooking.. -.-" ....

I decided to lie down at John's bed as I had the "FEEL" to sleep (sigh, pity - i'm being called SNORLAX)Later, she joined me in bed and started to hug me in passion...
arhh... the physical comfort and transparent love was overflowing that moment and my heart exPLoded.. when she gave me a 10 seconds kiss on my lips...

I was shocked at 1st; not expecting she would perform that act... but in return, i just replied her kiss with a soft kiss on her lips.... as the saying goes, 1 for 1....
Ty for giving this day...
Anyway tcre my dear and take good care of urself~~~`Love u...

Confused

~~~ can some things be proven by actions, figures of speech or the affection towards the other party? ~~~

Is simplicity is much more preferable than complexity or is it vice versa?

Does every course of action, decision, and thought means a lot to the other?

Week phobia

What a week I had to undergo for the past few days....
In a glimpse, 3 consecutive tragical events had been fated to occur in my life.....

The first one was pretty personal which I wouldn't want to remind myself neither my darling as deep down in my heart, it was entirely my fault and the sense of guilt is killing me...

At this pivotal point, a great lesson which I have learned and wished to plant into my head that is to prioritise her safety and needs.

Secondly, I was enduring an anguish period of fever, sore throat, constipation, and etc. There was a huge gap of time since I last fell sick and I was lying total flat on the bed for the whole day!

Thirdly, my grandpa had went to the afterlife where he is at ease. It was too sudden as doc claimed his pancreas was suffering inflammation and consequently affecting main vital organs especially the heart. At 9.20pm, Saturday, he left this world and I was pretty glad that I managed to tell him my biggest secret.. I would say he's the 1st family member whom I told regarding my secret. Inevitably, I missed him as a grandpa; flashed back those moments where he took care of me and my bro, the way he laughed and nagged at us. The last day of the funeral, I couldn't hold back my tears when I saw his coffin going into the chamber slowly bit by bit......

These three events had indirectly trained me up to handle situations in a calmer and systematic way.... although I had to admit, it was tough..really tough... Being tough aint easy but acting tough is much more difficult.