~~~ can some things be proven by actions, figures of speech or the affection towards the other party? ~~~
Is simplicity is much more preferable than complexity or is it vice versa?
Does every course of action, decision, and thought means a lot to the other?
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Week phobia
What a week I had to undergo for the past few days....
In a glimpse, 3 consecutive tragical events had been fated to occur in my life.....
The first one was pretty personal which I wouldn't want to remind myself neither my darling as deep down in my heart, it was entirely my fault and the sense of guilt is killing me...
At this pivotal point, a great lesson which I have learned and wished to plant into my head that is to prioritise her safety and needs.
Secondly, I was enduring an anguish period of fever, sore throat, constipation, and etc. There was a huge gap of time since I last fell sick and I was lying total flat on the bed for the whole day!
Thirdly, my grandpa had went to the afterlife where he is at ease. It was too sudden as doc claimed his pancreas was suffering inflammation and consequently affecting main vital organs especially the heart. At 9.20pm, Saturday, he left this world and I was pretty glad that I managed to tell him my biggest secret.. I would say he's the 1st family member whom I told regarding my secret. Inevitably, I missed him as a grandpa; flashed back those moments where he took care of me and my bro, the way he laughed and nagged at us. The last day of the funeral, I couldn't hold back my tears when I saw his coffin going into the chamber slowly bit by bit......
These three events had indirectly trained me up to handle situations in a calmer and systematic way.... although I had to admit, it was tough..really tough... Being tough aint easy but acting tough is much more difficult.
In a glimpse, 3 consecutive tragical events had been fated to occur in my life.....
The first one was pretty personal which I wouldn't want to remind myself neither my darling as deep down in my heart, it was entirely my fault and the sense of guilt is killing me...
At this pivotal point, a great lesson which I have learned and wished to plant into my head that is to prioritise her safety and needs.
Secondly, I was enduring an anguish period of fever, sore throat, constipation, and etc. There was a huge gap of time since I last fell sick and I was lying total flat on the bed for the whole day!
Thirdly, my grandpa had went to the afterlife where he is at ease. It was too sudden as doc claimed his pancreas was suffering inflammation and consequently affecting main vital organs especially the heart. At 9.20pm, Saturday, he left this world and I was pretty glad that I managed to tell him my biggest secret.. I would say he's the 1st family member whom I told regarding my secret. Inevitably, I missed him as a grandpa; flashed back those moments where he took care of me and my bro, the way he laughed and nagged at us. The last day of the funeral, I couldn't hold back my tears when I saw his coffin going into the chamber slowly bit by bit......
These three events had indirectly trained me up to handle situations in a calmer and systematic way.... although I had to admit, it was tough..really tough... Being tough aint easy but acting tough is much more difficult.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
~~~~~ untitled.. too bored and lazy to think ...
Omg … without a doubt, this is the most horrible sem break which I have to undergo..
Rubbish absolutely rubbish…
It’s either busy completing unnecessary chores or ending up enduring the boredom to the max. For the 1st time, I asked myself what I’m supposed to do??? T_T can you believe it ? Before the sem break, plentiful ideas were gushing through my mind… but now its an entire different situation…
Sigh.. I realized that whatever I’m doing now including eating, on9-ing, anime-ing half heartedly; seems like there’s absolute absence of motivation in me. All that reside in my mind now is two things. 1st definitely is my dear. Honestly, now it is proven that the word “LOVE” is a very powerful and influensive word almost like an influenza. Thanks to her, I feel it is a priority to give a sense of security and reliability to her plus standing strong in physical and mental wise. 2nd thing is my guitar practice.. sigh another hassle.. I’ll have to admit its my fault to training hard last minute -.- … hwaiting~~! Instead of complaining, all I can do is to train harder and harder day by day.
1 more day is the beginning of my 2nd sem… Another idiotic hassle where I think I have to register one of my subject manually besides the foolish result where we are required to go to ERU to obtain our results for the previous sem.
Rubbish absolutely rubbish…
It’s either busy completing unnecessary chores or ending up enduring the boredom to the max. For the 1st time, I asked myself what I’m supposed to do??? T_T can you believe it ? Before the sem break, plentiful ideas were gushing through my mind… but now its an entire different situation…
Sigh.. I realized that whatever I’m doing now including eating, on9-ing, anime-ing half heartedly; seems like there’s absolute absence of motivation in me. All that reside in my mind now is two things. 1st definitely is my dear. Honestly, now it is proven that the word “LOVE” is a very powerful and influensive word almost like an influenza. Thanks to her, I feel it is a priority to give a sense of security and reliability to her plus standing strong in physical and mental wise. 2nd thing is my guitar practice.. sigh another hassle.. I’ll have to admit its my fault to training hard last minute -.- … hwaiting~~! Instead of complaining, all I can do is to train harder and harder day by day.
1 more day is the beginning of my 2nd sem… Another idiotic hassle where I think I have to register one of my subject manually besides the foolish result where we are required to go to ERU to obtain our results for the previous sem.
Monday, October 19, 2009
2 weeks of joy and despair
It was still clear in my mind the last day we separated for 2 weeks…
1 day equivalent to a week, what about 2 weeks then? ..GG
In a glimpse, 1 week had passed… its fast though; I had to admit…
During the previous week, I went for a short trip to KL and JB. Besides shopping for 2 nightless days, ks, the gang and I met up with our old pal; CK. Still, there was that sort of awkwardness; maybe its just that we haven’t met for a long time (plus roger was there as well ==” ) After conquering shopping complexes- midvalley, garden, times square, we went to JB for a 5 hours bus ride. I felt lunatic when I had to sit still for 5 hours… it was almost impossible…
By the way, I had realized another thing which was I had become the sleeping king.. honestly, I had no idea what was going on with me. Throughout my whole journey, I spend most of my time sleeping and napping; entering the world of my own almost everywhere- the car, park, shopping complexes, stores…. Maybe, I m just too tired but when I shut my eyes, my thought was filled of HER and our happy memories…. and surprisingly, she was very “kuai”; sleeping early before 12 almost every night.. ^^
For now, I must concentrate on practicing my guitar skills as well as giving moral support to my dear as she’s gonna have her speaking test.. Gambateh! Hwaiting~~~!
1 day equivalent to a week, what about 2 weeks then? ..GG
In a glimpse, 1 week had passed… its fast though; I had to admit…
During the previous week, I went for a short trip to KL and JB. Besides shopping for 2 nightless days, ks, the gang and I met up with our old pal; CK. Still, there was that sort of awkwardness; maybe its just that we haven’t met for a long time (plus roger was there as well ==” ) After conquering shopping complexes- midvalley, garden, times square, we went to JB for a 5 hours bus ride. I felt lunatic when I had to sit still for 5 hours… it was almost impossible…
By the way, I had realized another thing which was I had become the sleeping king.. honestly, I had no idea what was going on with me. Throughout my whole journey, I spend most of my time sleeping and napping; entering the world of my own almost everywhere- the car, park, shopping complexes, stores…. Maybe, I m just too tired but when I shut my eyes, my thought was filled of HER and our happy memories…. and surprisingly, she was very “kuai”; sleeping early before 12 almost every night.. ^^
For now, I must concentrate on practicing my guitar skills as well as giving moral support to my dear as she’s gonna have her speaking test.. Gambateh! Hwaiting~~~!
Monday, September 21, 2009
5 I's ... i m sorry
I have said this phrase a gazillion times…..
I’m really sorry, I couldn't be your dream guy as my heart is tied to someone else...
I don’t mean to pierce through your heart as I know every course of my actions is vital.
I hope the scars in your heart won’t be permanent as guilt is overflowing within my soul...
I wish deeply in my heart you will find someone better than this wrecked tool …..
Why is this happening repetitively? Maybe like what someone has told me before, it is because of your personality - my dear has told me before. Ignorance and taking certain things for granted are my biggest mistake. For some things in life, we as guys take things lightly meanwhile we are not aware that the opposite sex take in heavily. From the outside, they seem fine but deep down inside, it is another story. Recently, seeing my girlfriend’s hearts being slashed from time to time is tragic. Personally, me as a guy feel shameful, hatred while having pity for them. Those sorts of feelings are hard to express yet tough to keep as well….
These recent happenings have made me to appreciate my beloved even more.. L0vE u dear….
I’m really sorry, I couldn't be your dream guy as my heart is tied to someone else...
I don’t mean to pierce through your heart as I know every course of my actions is vital.
I hope the scars in your heart won’t be permanent as guilt is overflowing within my soul...
I wish deeply in my heart you will find someone better than this wrecked tool …..
Why is this happening repetitively? Maybe like what someone has told me before, it is because of your personality - my dear has told me before. Ignorance and taking certain things for granted are my biggest mistake. For some things in life, we as guys take things lightly meanwhile we are not aware that the opposite sex take in heavily. From the outside, they seem fine but deep down inside, it is another story. Recently, seeing my girlfriend’s hearts being slashed from time to time is tragic. Personally, me as a guy feel shameful, hatred while having pity for them. Those sorts of feelings are hard to express yet tough to keep as well….
These recent happenings have made me to appreciate my beloved even more.. L0vE u dear….
Monday, September 14, 2009
What a night....
Yesterday night, my machine's battery was deteriorating as I went out for half of the day. After coming back from a long drive with friends, there was another late night birthday party. She was my classmate; not very familiar – still since I was invited, why not? Anyway, I love to birthday parties ^^
Then, we played Dare (X true) to kill time and boredom. I was lucky enough initially to escape from “death” – my beloved tio the 1st time; following my gang…
Ding dong! It was a turnover as I got the “A” heart card. Well, I had to give a peck to my dear for like 5 seconds…. It was pretty strange doing it in front of public – I would rather take it to myself and her alone. Next, I stepped on “shit” again and had to perform a song for her…. Wow…. It didn’t even come across my mind…
I was feeling regretful as I was not that fluent in mandarin or else “it” would be a song selection for her. Singing “more than words” by westlife in front of my friends and her…. wasn’t easy – I felt as though my heart wanna burst out, yet all I did was to have her pictured in my thought and I just follow the flow… It wasn’t good – I admit XP but the words are sincere…. Don’t worry next time, I would come up with a different song ^.^
Hwaiting~
Then, we played Dare (X true) to kill time and boredom. I was lucky enough initially to escape from “death” – my beloved tio the 1st time; following my gang…
Ding dong! It was a turnover as I got the “A” heart card. Well, I had to give a peck to my dear for like 5 seconds…. It was pretty strange doing it in front of public – I would rather take it to myself and her alone. Next, I stepped on “shit” again and had to perform a song for her…. Wow…. It didn’t even come across my mind…
I was feeling regretful as I was not that fluent in mandarin or else “it” would be a song selection for her. Singing “more than words” by westlife in front of my friends and her…. wasn’t easy – I felt as though my heart wanna burst out, yet all I did was to have her pictured in my thought and I just follow the flow… It wasn’t good – I admit XP but the words are sincere…. Don’t worry next time, I would come up with a different song ^.^
Hwaiting~
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Perfect Day
5/9/2009
What a perfect day to begin. After securing 1st place in the business competition, result of our hard work and effort was really worth it. I would say it ain’t easy at all planning and organizing a business plan. It was tough like climbing up
After that, I went home to take a nap to prepare for the big night – the night I have been waiting for a long period of time. Thankfully, everything went according to plan and we had a great time together (details are P&C). For the 1st time in my life, I finally understood that sort of sickness…. and through this, I felt another step closer to you ….
Saranghaeyo ……..
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