5 I's ... i m sorry

I have said this phrase a gazillion times…..
I’m really sorry, I couldn't be your dream guy as my heart is tied to someone else...
I don’t mean to pierce through your heart as I know every course of my actions is vital.
I hope the scars in your heart won’t be permanent as guilt is overflowing within my soul...
I wish deeply in my heart you will find someone better than this wrecked tool …..



Why is this happening repetitively? Maybe like what someone has told me before, it is because of your personality - my dear has told me before. Ignorance and taking certain things for granted are my biggest mistake. For some things in life, we as guys take things lightly meanwhile we are not aware that the opposite sex take in heavily. From the outside, they seem fine but deep down inside, it is another story. Recently, seeing my girlfriend’s hearts being slashed from time to time is tragic. Personally, me as a guy feel shameful, hatred while having pity for them. Those sorts of feelings are hard to express yet tough to keep as well….

These recent happenings have made me to appreciate my beloved even more.. L0vE u dear….

What a night....

Yesterday night, my machine's battery was deteriorating as I went out for half of the day. After coming back from a long drive with friends, there was another late night birthday party. She was my classmate; not very familiar – still since I was invited, why not? Anyway, I love to birthday parties ^^
Then, we played Dare (X true) to kill time and boredom. I was lucky enough initially to escape from “death” – my beloved tio the 1st time; following my gang…
Ding dong! It was a turnover as I got the “A” heart card. Well, I had to give a peck to my dear for like 5 seconds…. It was pretty strange doing it in front of public – I would rather take it to myself and her alone. Next, I stepped on “shit” again and had to perform a song for her…. Wow…. It didn’t even come across my mind…
I was feeling regretful as I was not that fluent in mandarin or else “it” would be a song selection for her. Singing “more than words” by westlife in front of my friends and her…. wasn’t easy – I felt as though my heart wanna burst out, yet all I did was to have her pictured in my thought and I just follow the flow… It wasn’t good – I admit XP but the words are sincere…. Don’t worry next time, I would come up with a different song ^.^
Hwaiting~

Perfect Day

5/9/2009

What a perfect day to begin. After securing 1^st place in the business competition, result of our hard work and effort was really worth it. I would say it ain’t easy at all planning and organizing a business plan. It was tough like climbing up Mount Everest. My presentation fragment didn’t work out as well as my expectation but all praise to God that we were able to shine during Q&A session. Receiving a cash of RM1000 and good commentaries from people really did make us feel like celebrity.

After that, I went home to take a nap to prepare for the big night – the night I have been waiting for a long period of time. Thankfully, everything went according to plan and we had a great time together (details are P&C). For the 1^st time in my life, I finally understood that sort of sickness…. and through this, I felt another step closer to you ….

Saranghaeyo ……..

EGAMES MMU CLOSED DOTA TOURNAMENT

What a great today as I could finally involved in a gaming event... DAEBAK!(Success) It was really tough setting up the equipment as I'm not an IT breed..... So, I'm pretty noob in these sort of things but gaming is in my blood! ^^ that's what I'm good in.

Looking at those players; pro's and not so pro (not noob = 3 =") really boiled the whole atmosphere. Thanks to the supportive crowd, our mini-event is a success ^.^ ....
The most significant match would be the last as the sentinel team managed to destroy the fountain! (only dota players will know) NO shyt man.....

Best of all, I managed to play COD4 with the Hi-com FOC!!! hehe *so satisfying ....

Still, I have to finish up cyber p =.= JOY KILLER

Again & Again

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Finally, the boy of reasons came to pay us a visit - awww... pity him, he had to take a long route just to reach Malacca. It had been centuries since I last saw him and we had an awesome insane time 38-ing with the guys and gals. It was good to have him back and we chatted lots of stuff together just like old times.....

The same misery came to drowned our minds again.......just like old times ==.....

Cont'd

sorry for the fragmented part because i was sort of blogging at the wrong time XD (P&C)...anyway...

it was like as though God was giving me a hint or maybe an opportunity. Well, every time its like this, just like 5 years back... sigh.. those feeling again...

Do I wait or not? this question has troubled me for quite some time last trimester and I thought it ended in my beta year but unfortunately, things don't flow smoothly. Waiting for someone, that sort of feeling is undescribable, that urging feeling which you would like to express to that particular person,telling her how much you love her and etc. I had went through this experience waiting for this person for a long period of time and people around me keep reminding me of my stupidity. I Sigh, maybe I'm just too naive in handling relationships.

Is now the right time to date? I wonder.... "Am I nw really emotionally stable to have one? or am i qualified or to have the right to love someone nw?" I have asked myself this question numerous times and the answer is always the same - " ___" blank......

Do You Believe in Fate?

Neh, chung nah mida ....

Its like when sometimes, you meet your special one during unexpected times and you are just stunned there, not knowing what kind of reaction nor expression. Even sometimes I feel like....

to be continued