~~~
The day when she gave me d necklace, my heart experienced an impact of shock and surprise. I would have never thought she would buy a couple's necklace for us~~
That short period of time when she was sneaking around, my curiosity was starting to develop as my heart was filled with anxiety~~~
Shortly, she wore the appealing necklace, a male’s symbol-like necklace with a light green flower as the main decoration and the phrase “I love you forever” around my neck while hers saying “me too”…
During that moment, I was mesmerized and touched by the precious gift which she had given to me; in addition, she even told me that she had waited for a stretched time to purchase that pair of necklace~~~
~~ Recently, she had shared with me her thoughts; stating two rules of hers which I respect~~~ Simultaneously, it had both positive and negative impact on me but my conscience and institution were telling me, it’s not the end but it was just the beginning. Therefore, to maintain our relationship, every wise decision and action to be taken are absolutely vital!!!~~~
~~~ Not long again, I had hurt another person’s heart ~~~
By right, she knows at present, my heart is filled with my darling already but still, a foolish gamble was taken by her~~ Why? You should know the consequences clearly if you had confessed and eventually asking me to leave my gf and to start off with you? you must be nuts~~~… I think I have stated this very clearly that once I LOVE a person, the flame never die which is residing within me.
I was thinking to myself, whether I should share this with my dear as it might be a sensitive issue for her~~~ who knows~~~ I had written this blog to express my hidden thoughts into words~~If by chance, when she sees this blog, I hope she could understand my situation and sincerity as I would do the same for her~~~
Aaron~~
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
A mirror
Looking at her right now burdens my heart occasionally as she is replica of me...
I would strongly agree that her character is very similar to mine...
That's another reason why the more I should help her..
My friend is in trouble; disturbed by her problems, uncertainties and worries...
As she was sharing with me just now, my mind flashed back those times when I once underwent similar situations with her...
All I can do now is to provide morale support and encouraging her to do whats right...
First and foremost, I'm happy enough as she confronted me previously to share her thoughts and problems.... and I'm overjoy to help in return..
Dun give up yeah~~!!! rmbr the qoutes I gave u and I hope deeply you find them useful... Hwaiting~~!!!
LIFE's a climb but the view is great~~~~
I would strongly agree that her character is very similar to mine...
That's another reason why the more I should help her..
My friend is in trouble; disturbed by her problems, uncertainties and worries...
As she was sharing with me just now, my mind flashed back those times when I once underwent similar situations with her...
All I can do now is to provide morale support and encouraging her to do whats right...
First and foremost, I'm happy enough as she confronted me previously to share her thoughts and problems.... and I'm overjoy to help in return..
Dun give up yeah~~!!! rmbr the qoutes I gave u and I hope deeply you find them useful... Hwaiting~~!!!
LIFE's a climb but the view is great~~~~
An angel.....
18/11
yahoo!!! Meeting her after 3 days of missing her was totally awesome! For the past few days, inevitably, my heart was filled with her image, wondering whether her health has improved as she had been sicked for the past few days previously.
I was accompanying her for the day in completion of her assignment and etc. We went to date later as usual... :)and even tried to find potential dresses for prom night. It was hard for her to find her right choice of dress but I think I will not ever forget when she put on her 1st dress. When she opened the fitting room's door and just stood prettily, my jaw just dropped in awe and amusement. I was thinking to myself" omg she's so pretty!" .....
19/11
Last day before she left for hometown... Having her in my company for the half day was my pleasure. Plus, I went for a haircut 2day.. sigh really cant stand the hot weather these days and the hairstylist was asking me "heh where's your gf?"while giving my hair a trim...
Not quite some time later, she came in unknowingly without my notice but the hairstylist realised and asked me "heh is that ur gf?" I just replied with smile and a big "YES"...
I dunno why but a sense of joy and achievement I was experiencing that moment...
We went to Ks house's later for house meeting while she was being herself in her own world as usual - facebooking.. -.-" ....
I decided to lie down at John's bed as I had the "FEEL" to sleep (sigh, pity - i'm being called SNORLAX)Later, she joined me in bed and started to hug me in passion...
arhh... the physical comfort and transparent love was overflowing that moment and my heart exPLoded.. when she gave me a 10 seconds kiss on my lips...
I was shocked at 1st; not expecting she would perform that act... but in return, i just replied her kiss with a soft kiss on her lips.... as the saying goes, 1 for 1....
Ty for giving this day...
Anyway tcre my dear and take good care of urself~~~`Love u...
yahoo!!! Meeting her after 3 days of missing her was totally awesome! For the past few days, inevitably, my heart was filled with her image, wondering whether her health has improved as she had been sicked for the past few days previously.
I was accompanying her for the day in completion of her assignment and etc. We went to date later as usual... :)and even tried to find potential dresses for prom night. It was hard for her to find her right choice of dress but I think I will not ever forget when she put on her 1st dress. When she opened the fitting room's door and just stood prettily, my jaw just dropped in awe and amusement. I was thinking to myself" omg she's so pretty!" .....
19/11
Last day before she left for hometown... Having her in my company for the half day was my pleasure. Plus, I went for a haircut 2day.. sigh really cant stand the hot weather these days and the hairstylist was asking me "heh where's your gf?"while giving my hair a trim...
Not quite some time later, she came in unknowingly without my notice but the hairstylist realised and asked me "heh is that ur gf?" I just replied with smile and a big "YES"...
I dunno why but a sense of joy and achievement I was experiencing that moment...
We went to Ks house's later for house meeting while she was being herself in her own world as usual - facebooking.. -.-" ....
I decided to lie down at John's bed as I had the "FEEL" to sleep (sigh, pity - i'm being called SNORLAX)Later, she joined me in bed and started to hug me in passion...
arhh... the physical comfort and transparent love was overflowing that moment and my heart exPLoded.. when she gave me a 10 seconds kiss on my lips...
I was shocked at 1st; not expecting she would perform that act... but in return, i just replied her kiss with a soft kiss on her lips.... as the saying goes, 1 for 1....
Ty for giving this day...
Anyway tcre my dear and take good care of urself~~~`Love u...
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Confused
~~~ can some things be proven by actions, figures of speech or the affection towards the other party? ~~~
Is simplicity is much more preferable than complexity or is it vice versa?
Does every course of action, decision, and thought means a lot to the other?
Is simplicity is much more preferable than complexity or is it vice versa?
Does every course of action, decision, and thought means a lot to the other?
Week phobia
What a week I had to undergo for the past few days....
In a glimpse, 3 consecutive tragical events had been fated to occur in my life.....
The first one was pretty personal which I wouldn't want to remind myself neither my darling as deep down in my heart, it was entirely my fault and the sense of guilt is killing me...
At this pivotal point, a great lesson which I have learned and wished to plant into my head that is to prioritise her safety and needs.
Secondly, I was enduring an anguish period of fever, sore throat, constipation, and etc. There was a huge gap of time since I last fell sick and I was lying total flat on the bed for the whole day!
Thirdly, my grandpa had went to the afterlife where he is at ease. It was too sudden as doc claimed his pancreas was suffering inflammation and consequently affecting main vital organs especially the heart. At 9.20pm, Saturday, he left this world and I was pretty glad that I managed to tell him my biggest secret.. I would say he's the 1st family member whom I told regarding my secret. Inevitably, I missed him as a grandpa; flashed back those moments where he took care of me and my bro, the way he laughed and nagged at us. The last day of the funeral, I couldn't hold back my tears when I saw his coffin going into the chamber slowly bit by bit......
These three events had indirectly trained me up to handle situations in a calmer and systematic way.... although I had to admit, it was tough..really tough... Being tough aint easy but acting tough is much more difficult.
In a glimpse, 3 consecutive tragical events had been fated to occur in my life.....
The first one was pretty personal which I wouldn't want to remind myself neither my darling as deep down in my heart, it was entirely my fault and the sense of guilt is killing me...
At this pivotal point, a great lesson which I have learned and wished to plant into my head that is to prioritise her safety and needs.
Secondly, I was enduring an anguish period of fever, sore throat, constipation, and etc. There was a huge gap of time since I last fell sick and I was lying total flat on the bed for the whole day!
Thirdly, my grandpa had went to the afterlife where he is at ease. It was too sudden as doc claimed his pancreas was suffering inflammation and consequently affecting main vital organs especially the heart. At 9.20pm, Saturday, he left this world and I was pretty glad that I managed to tell him my biggest secret.. I would say he's the 1st family member whom I told regarding my secret. Inevitably, I missed him as a grandpa; flashed back those moments where he took care of me and my bro, the way he laughed and nagged at us. The last day of the funeral, I couldn't hold back my tears when I saw his coffin going into the chamber slowly bit by bit......
These three events had indirectly trained me up to handle situations in a calmer and systematic way.... although I had to admit, it was tough..really tough... Being tough aint easy but acting tough is much more difficult.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
~~~~~ untitled.. too bored and lazy to think ...
Omg … without a doubt, this is the most horrible sem break which I have to undergo..
Rubbish absolutely rubbish…
It’s either busy completing unnecessary chores or ending up enduring the boredom to the max. For the 1st time, I asked myself what I’m supposed to do??? T_T can you believe it ? Before the sem break, plentiful ideas were gushing through my mind… but now its an entire different situation…
Sigh.. I realized that whatever I’m doing now including eating, on9-ing, anime-ing half heartedly; seems like there’s absolute absence of motivation in me. All that reside in my mind now is two things. 1st definitely is my dear. Honestly, now it is proven that the word “LOVE” is a very powerful and influensive word almost like an influenza. Thanks to her, I feel it is a priority to give a sense of security and reliability to her plus standing strong in physical and mental wise. 2nd thing is my guitar practice.. sigh another hassle.. I’ll have to admit its my fault to training hard last minute -.- … hwaiting~~! Instead of complaining, all I can do is to train harder and harder day by day.
1 more day is the beginning of my 2nd sem… Another idiotic hassle where I think I have to register one of my subject manually besides the foolish result where we are required to go to ERU to obtain our results for the previous sem.
Rubbish absolutely rubbish…
It’s either busy completing unnecessary chores or ending up enduring the boredom to the max. For the 1st time, I asked myself what I’m supposed to do??? T_T can you believe it ? Before the sem break, plentiful ideas were gushing through my mind… but now its an entire different situation…
Sigh.. I realized that whatever I’m doing now including eating, on9-ing, anime-ing half heartedly; seems like there’s absolute absence of motivation in me. All that reside in my mind now is two things. 1st definitely is my dear. Honestly, now it is proven that the word “LOVE” is a very powerful and influensive word almost like an influenza. Thanks to her, I feel it is a priority to give a sense of security and reliability to her plus standing strong in physical and mental wise. 2nd thing is my guitar practice.. sigh another hassle.. I’ll have to admit its my fault to training hard last minute -.- … hwaiting~~! Instead of complaining, all I can do is to train harder and harder day by day.
1 more day is the beginning of my 2nd sem… Another idiotic hassle where I think I have to register one of my subject manually besides the foolish result where we are required to go to ERU to obtain our results for the previous sem.
Monday, October 19, 2009
2 weeks of joy and despair
It was still clear in my mind the last day we separated for 2 weeks…
1 day equivalent to a week, what about 2 weeks then? ..GG
In a glimpse, 1 week had passed… its fast though; I had to admit…
During the previous week, I went for a short trip to KL and JB. Besides shopping for 2 nightless days, ks, the gang and I met up with our old pal; CK. Still, there was that sort of awkwardness; maybe its just that we haven’t met for a long time (plus roger was there as well ==” ) After conquering shopping complexes- midvalley, garden, times square, we went to JB for a 5 hours bus ride. I felt lunatic when I had to sit still for 5 hours… it was almost impossible…
By the way, I had realized another thing which was I had become the sleeping king.. honestly, I had no idea what was going on with me. Throughout my whole journey, I spend most of my time sleeping and napping; entering the world of my own almost everywhere- the car, park, shopping complexes, stores…. Maybe, I m just too tired but when I shut my eyes, my thought was filled of HER and our happy memories…. and surprisingly, she was very “kuai”; sleeping early before 12 almost every night.. ^^
For now, I must concentrate on practicing my guitar skills as well as giving moral support to my dear as she’s gonna have her speaking test.. Gambateh! Hwaiting~~~!
1 day equivalent to a week, what about 2 weeks then? ..GG
In a glimpse, 1 week had passed… its fast though; I had to admit…
During the previous week, I went for a short trip to KL and JB. Besides shopping for 2 nightless days, ks, the gang and I met up with our old pal; CK. Still, there was that sort of awkwardness; maybe its just that we haven’t met for a long time (plus roger was there as well ==” ) After conquering shopping complexes- midvalley, garden, times square, we went to JB for a 5 hours bus ride. I felt lunatic when I had to sit still for 5 hours… it was almost impossible…
By the way, I had realized another thing which was I had become the sleeping king.. honestly, I had no idea what was going on with me. Throughout my whole journey, I spend most of my time sleeping and napping; entering the world of my own almost everywhere- the car, park, shopping complexes, stores…. Maybe, I m just too tired but when I shut my eyes, my thought was filled of HER and our happy memories…. and surprisingly, she was very “kuai”; sleeping early before 12 almost every night.. ^^
For now, I must concentrate on practicing my guitar skills as well as giving moral support to my dear as she’s gonna have her speaking test.. Gambateh! Hwaiting~~~!
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