1st day of 2009

Today's PCA presentation felt more like 50/50 of failure and success as I was pretty darn nervous this afternoon. Still, the thing that was really bothering me was, in my thoughts, or so-called wonderland, time do really passed quickly just like the monsoon wind. Sharp at 12am, while I was busy sending new year's message to all my known friends, my little brain at the top had the thought of, "Man, I'm another year elder. OMG!!! I m 19 years old!!! Another year 20!!". My heart had a strong impact reflected by the fact of aging. Generally, feedbacks from friends and relatives stated that I don't have the 18 years old look but instead 20 and above *sigh T-T. Occassionally, I do really hoped I wouldn't age that fast or maybe just be like Peter Pan in Wonderland. What a silly thought of mine....

Tiring day

Today seems a little bored and dull. I have no idea why, even myself feeling kinda moody, restless, and lethargic. Sigh, I think most probably lots of mixed emotions filled me up this morning. I'm personally not a sexiest; yet, I think being a girl is much more fortunate compared to a guy. In reality, its always the girls who have the priority to accept or turn down a guy's offer. Lately, my friend and I kinda been troubled by this matter. As we are in the same condition, my friend has really put all his effort in this girl when he had just overcome his feelings over his ex-crush. As both of us never date before, its kinda hurtful being rejected directly and indirectly. Seeing my friend now is as though seeing myself... What a day....

1st day of blogging

Wassup y'all ^^ hmmm .. actually my friends encouraged blogging for the past few weeks. Initially, i have absolute no idea what's the point of blogging and my first bad impression was that people blogged for the purpose of attention and perhaps fame. Sorry guys no offense. But when I really looked back, I think blogging is more sort of expressing yourself. I feel more relaxed and at ease. This is my story. I'm an English educated person and English, I could say is my main language. It's a turn over point since I stepped my foot at uni. Every now and then, I have been trying my best to adapt to Mandarin and Cantonese as they were not my primary language. Easier said than done; still, with the help of my friends, my management on these two languages have improved. I'm absolutely grateful to them. Its kinda funny when they are trying to figure out my message and cracking their heads off. Over here, I sort of develop my own chinese and stuff. There's once when my friend asked me, "how come you insist on speaking chinese with us instead of english?" Well, maybe you guys think I m dumb or a doofus. To me, I would prefer to adapt to the enviroment rather than vice versa. In life, we just can't be too selfish and childish, wishing all things in life would go our own way. That's one thing i learn from the experience in life and literacy.This blog is beneficial to me as I could really fully express myself in blogging in english. lolz, now I really do believe the song, " more than words" sang by Westlife.