(Blows, coughs) “Man, so much dust”. Well, it has been ages since I last blogged. Due to massive workloads and time-consuming long term assignments, “daily-ron” has been abandoned for quite some time. Still, it resurrected today! 9.52 pm! 23/3/2009!
Sigh, so much to tell but yet, so little to explain. I personally have to admit as a guy, I’m much more emotional these days. It’s as though a machine has reached its limit. I was told by a friend that, sometimes it’s better to let it out (sharing problems) rather taking the burden all by yourself. There was another saying which was “try to relax, don’t think too much” as well as “you never try, you never know”. These phrases are actually tallying close to my current problems and miseries. In the midst of facing these obstacles, I am trying to stand firm, be strong and think optimistically even now ,but easier said than done.
For me, I could give advises and suggestions (theories) to friends on how to tackle their major or minor problems, even to the extend of teaching on how to apply the theories into reality. Yet, I couldn’t practice them myself and I think it’s kind of silly of me. This semester, I would say it’s one of the worst and the best period of time in my entire life.
With conflicts scattering all around among friends, people’s attitude began to change or should I say, showing their true “colours”, and maybe feeling a great distance or gap between certain friends, and some personal problems which I hoped I would never encounter in my life, my conscious was telling me I couldn’t bear all of this anymore. For certain reasons, I wished I could just step out of the box for a moment.
Those were referring to my awful memories and moments in university.
Despite all that, I was given the most precious gift (feeling) in my entire life. After waiting for 5 years, searching for that particular feeling, it came to me without me even realizing it. I would say it’s worth it despite all the miseries I have. For when I’m down or my soul feeling weary, she’s the one would give me strength, regenerating every cell and power in my “battery”. But! I ain’t have an idea whether she realizes it and strangely, I could feel her feelings either happiness or sadness. Well, logically, maybe it’s just me being too sensitive.
Plus, personally for me, liking someone doesn’t mean you have to be with that person. If you could just cherish or care for her, it would be more than enough and most vital of them all, if she’s happy, then I’m happy.
We are human,so we cant predict what's happening tomorrow.As I think,we should focus at what we want to do.Ask yourself,is your decision will affect your entire life or just a few years?And yes,sharing is caring.Talk to your trusted friends,ask your peer friends' opinion and some seniors' guidance as well.Then compare the two results and make your decision.Your final decision will be the best one.I believe you already have many opinion in your minds.Believe yourself,listen to yourself.This is very important to you.As for the friendship relationship,about the "true colour",dont be too mind about it.If you really treat them as friends,you will not mind their characters.When you go through your "maze",and not mind about their character,then you will be no problem about being friends with them.Like me,I do not have any bias towards anyone in our class.This is because I realised this theory.I hope you also can cope with it.
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