Its been too long since I last thought of you. After that day, we wished to proceed in life leaving the past, concentrate on the present and wishing the best for the future. During the holidays, it took me pretty hard time to really forget about it.....
Well maybe like what they said, people you favour of is easy to remember but hard to forget. My conscious keep telling me day by day to take baby steps and keep looking forward but...
my stubborn head and heart have the tendency to look back just in case there's a hope or maybe a miracle.....
Recently, I am stressed out due to assignments, exams and etc... Everything just compile together and it's pretty hard to take in all of them simultaneously. Peoples around me have been telling me I'm pretty cold these days and its true that I would prefer to set aside myself now to reflect on things (not being emo XD) During my saddened time, I will just think back of happy memories with you... Occasionally, I will just smile to myself like an insane person.. *smiles When I'm bored, I look back at my blog just to read up my past ... its as though a database of my memories...
The night which the farewell party falls, I received a message where I knew all my hopes, dreams, passion and love for you has died down but I took it like a man....Playing games, keeping in touch with secondary friends, watching kdrama daily is what I did to spend my sem breaks thinking maybe you would do the same as me knowing your character... haha ^^
There's a reason I have been thinking, why? isit I aint good enough despite my hideous looks, clown character or the previous misunderstandings? I never once think that you aren't a good pair for me instead, I would have a set of mind saying its always my problem and I have to improve myself for the better. Still, I think some things are just best not to be said..... when unnecessary moments.
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