Again & Again

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Finally, the boy of reasons came to pay us a visit - awww... pity him, he had to take a long route just to reach Malacca. It had been centuries since I last saw him and we had an awesome insane time 38-ing with the guys and gals. It was good to have him back and we chatted lots of stuff together just like old times.....

The same misery came to drowned our minds again.......just like old times ==.....

Cont'd

sorry for the fragmented part because i was sort of blogging at the wrong time XD (P&C)...anyway...

it was like as though God was giving me a hint or maybe an opportunity. Well, every time its like this, just like 5 years back... sigh.. those feeling again...

Do I wait or not? this question has troubled me for quite some time last trimester and I thought it ended in my beta year but unfortunately, things don't flow smoothly. Waiting for someone, that sort of feeling is undescribable, that urging feeling which you would like to express to that particular person,telling her how much you love her and etc. I had went through this experience waiting for this person for a long period of time and people around me keep reminding me of my stupidity. I Sigh, maybe I'm just too naive in handling relationships.

Is now the right time to date? I wonder.... "Am I nw really emotionally stable to have one? or am i qualified or to have the right to love someone nw?" I have asked myself this question numerous times and the answer is always the same - " ___" blank......

Do You Believe in Fate?

Neh, chung nah mida ....

Its like when sometimes, you meet your special one during unexpected times and you are just stunned there, not knowing what kind of reaction nor expression. Even sometimes I feel like....

to be continued

Its tough.....

Its been too long since I last thought of you. After that day, we wished to proceed in life leaving the past, concentrate on the present and wishing the best for the future. During the holidays, it took me pretty hard time to really forget about it.....

Well maybe like what they said, people you favour of is easy to remember but hard to forget. My conscious keep telling me day by day to take baby steps and keep looking forward but...
my stubborn head and heart have the tendency to look back just in case there's a hope or maybe a miracle.....

Recently, I am stressed out due to assignments, exams and etc... Everything just compile together and it's pretty hard to take in all of them simultaneously. Peoples around me have been telling me I'm pretty cold these days and its true that I would prefer to set aside myself now to reflect on things (not being emo XD) During my saddened time, I will just think back of happy memories with you... Occasionally, I will just smile to myself like an insane person.. *smiles When I'm bored, I look back at my blog just to read up my past ... its as though a database of my memories...

The night which the farewell party falls, I received a message where I knew all my hopes, dreams, passion and love for you has died down but I took it like a man....Playing games, keeping in touch with secondary friends, watching kdrama daily is what I did to spend my sem breaks thinking maybe you would do the same as me knowing your character... haha ^^

There's a reason I have been thinking, why? isit I aint good enough despite my hideous looks, clown character or the previous misunderstandings? I never once think that you aren't a good pair for me instead, I would have a set of mind saying its always my problem and I have to improve myself for the better. Still, I think some things are just best not to be said..... when unnecessary moments.

Because I m stupid

this lyrics of this song is really meaningful to me and I would like to personally dedicate this song to her.

Because i m stupid ss501
*eng translation

Because I am a fool
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably dont even know my heart

I probably dont exist in your daily life
And Im sure you have no thoughts of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And my tears keep falling

Just looking at your retreating figure
Is happiness to me
Even if you dont know my feelings
Even if you simply brush me aside

CHORUS:
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats I love you
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again Im missing you
Baby I love you
Im waiting for you

I probably dont exist in your daily life
And Im sure you have no memories of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And create my own memories

resolution

end of my story ....
well i think i will stop blogging for now...
well fresh start of degree life.... busy busy... nt much time to even on9.. (lazy for nw XD )
anyway lets hope for d best for my degree life!...

Fighting~!

.. Shi fok sai...

Finally, i'm feeling relieved and satisfied not worrying about the present and future neither the past... ^^

Ty for giving me that precious day ...

A small sparkle of light is burning again within my soul ... after a long time living in darkness...

Thank you so much.....

*muaxxx...