It has been long since I last wrote… still I could only find this time to blog~~~
The blessed and memorable Xmas started when I was chosen to play for the Christmas eve worship.
It had been my dream to play along with the trio of my church’s band – My brother, Jin Shan and Matthew. These three are the best combination of musicians I have ever met; they are skillful yet humble~~ Although I did messed up a little in the midst of songs, the presence of 100% satisfaction and overflowing joy was accompanying me that moment…
Before that, my dear including my MMU friends and I went to have a whole turkey INITIALLY at Amigo but unfortunately, our luck wasn’t there~~ still, we had turkey sets followed by some NOOBERS ordered Japanese cuisine. Can you believe it? Eating Japanese food on XMAS day?! What a joke~~ inevitably, I was laughing inside…
They joined my church’s worship which I was so glad to have my dear and my good friends by my side. It really boosted up my spiritual strength~~ My confidence rocketed as I could see a little face watching from the back~~ >.<
Eventually, we went to Portugese Settlement to join the countdown… WOW it was as though a haven for rats. The place was packed with people of all ages; not to mention pathetically spraying artificial spray snow to public as well as buffoons releasing firecrackers….
Despite all that nuisance, I enjoyed most by watching the various genuine lighting decorations of each and every house~~~
After the countdown and chaos, we went to Tribe for usual chit chatting~~~ with jessy, sophie, jenn, ah shuang, joanne, john, cheng hao, yong liang and jason~ The place was exquisite and phenomenal with the lighting and soft jazz music.. I love that place honestly~~~ It was our group’s TREND to play True or dare~~ omg~ it really stuck my vital laughter spot when Yong liang was declaring “I have a gf” while Ah shuang was “I don’t have a bf”. Eventually, someone from the other table presented him with a durex~~ haha >.< it was really hilarious….
Later, we ended up at kee siang’s house to call it a day~~~~ I gave her a Christmas tree as to reminisce about our 1st xmas together~~ I aint have no idea whether she liked it~~ but personally, I think the tree carried a personal and special meaning. My dear and I was feeling lots of intimacy and love that night like never before~~
Two days later, we went KL to spend our Christmas with a group of 7 which were me, Zhu, Munkey, john, TUPAI and BABI EMAS and eventually JENN.
The first stop was v’la court hotel~~ It was a pleasant hotel with adequate rooms. To be honest, the price charged along with the room’s capacity was tolerable. Later, we went to times square to meet up with jing zhu and had lunch. Beverages and food at kl were mouth watering food as there are a variety of them provided with their comfortable and air- conditioned place to feast. Next stop, we went to Mid valley to catch a movie. OMG~ that zhu without a doubt found a place to sit first as she was feeling fatigued and her feet were feeling sour.. can you believe that? For the 1st time in all my shopping years, I was finding places to sit instead of finding shops to shop till I drop~~
Later on, we went to catch a movie entitled Zombie Land~~ *laughs it was a hilarious movie but not to zhu and the monkey beside me who was screaming at the wrong time and place ==” .. We ended up back at the hotel while KS took his leave back to JB~~~ John and I slept “early” as our eyes were attached to the movie TITANIC on rmtv 2. The next morning, == sienz~~ I had insufficient sleep and I need time to fully wake up~~ FA DAI MODE~~ the zhu and monkey were striving hard to wake us up and it was freezing cold in that room~ those two aunties – sigh~~~
Around 12, we went to times square to meet up with jenn and did what were we here for! Shopping!! Unfortunately again, that ah poh was sitting down at one of the resting benches. =.=” She was motivated to shop when we reached sungai wang and at least she purchased a short pants~~~ I laughed to myself when the guys stand in a row outside the store as they were waiting for their gfs or wives.. haha how ironic it is :P…. In the end, I have to queue up for zhu as the queue was very long like the Great wall of China.
~~~ Munkey and Jenn were shopping as though money grew on trees…and I purchased a pair of shoes that she favoured. I was feeling miserable as well as she was being indecisive and you know what? I just solved her problem by purchasing the pair of shoes for her~~ PROBLEM SOLVED~~ at least I bought something that she keens~
The trip ended as we separated our ways back to our respective headed destinations.. That feeling of separation was unbearable.. and I could only sent her away with a goodbye kiss…
BB dear.. miss u~~~
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
small L & big L
a little fondness or sensation of overflowing love??
how do they differ? btw like and love??
like and love are two absolute different things...
People sometimes do get confused including me... but this time I would like to stand up to my point~~ as I wouldn't want to be in the same boat with the CONFUSED or NOT SURE category~~
Like is as though knowing more friends... you like this person or that guy etc etc~~ but the main point is that like differ from love in such a way, its just like a lighter. Its a starter of the race of your inner feeling; whether it will continue to develop or not - it all depends on your institution and the most crucial point; FEELINGS - Gan jue....
From my own experience, liking someone in your daily life means when you will look forward to chat with that particular person via sms, msn or any type of communication. You will find yourself unexpectedly dumb yet a little humorous when you use numerous methods to know more of that person you are keen to....
For example, she/he is the 1st person you search/look when you activate your msn/facebook account or simply trying to send ridiculous messages to that person~~ You don't know if the two of you are going to grow to be the best of friends or discover that you really don't like that person as much as you thought you would. I don't really think that you can lump together like and love because they are so different.Its one thing to like a person but its quite another to love that person.
On the other hand,Love is a different thing because love runs deeper than like. Love is more forgiving and more giving than like. You wouldn't just give anything to somebody you liked, but you would for the person that you love because its more special and precious. You would do anything to cheer up that person when she's down or to tag along with her mood 24/7. Liking somebody is just liking somebody but loving somebody means making more sacrifice, being more giving and being a little bit more honest with somebody. Love is more than just a friendship and its more than just honesty. Its about giving, sharing and most of all its about commitment to that one person and nobody else......
These sort of feeling you have to taste it for your own~~~ it would be better for self-experience~~
how do they differ? btw like and love??
like and love are two absolute different things...
People sometimes do get confused including me... but this time I would like to stand up to my point~~ as I wouldn't want to be in the same boat with the CONFUSED or NOT SURE category~~
Like is as though knowing more friends... you like this person or that guy etc etc~~ but the main point is that like differ from love in such a way, its just like a lighter. Its a starter of the race of your inner feeling; whether it will continue to develop or not - it all depends on your institution and the most crucial point; FEELINGS - Gan jue....
From my own experience, liking someone in your daily life means when you will look forward to chat with that particular person via sms, msn or any type of communication. You will find yourself unexpectedly dumb yet a little humorous when you use numerous methods to know more of that person you are keen to....
For example, she/he is the 1st person you search/look when you activate your msn/facebook account or simply trying to send ridiculous messages to that person~~ You don't know if the two of you are going to grow to be the best of friends or discover that you really don't like that person as much as you thought you would. I don't really think that you can lump together like and love because they are so different.Its one thing to like a person but its quite another to love that person.
On the other hand,Love is a different thing because love runs deeper than like. Love is more forgiving and more giving than like. You wouldn't just give anything to somebody you liked, but you would for the person that you love because its more special and precious. You would do anything to cheer up that person when she's down or to tag along with her mood 24/7. Liking somebody is just liking somebody but loving somebody means making more sacrifice, being more giving and being a little bit more honest with somebody. Love is more than just a friendship and its more than just honesty. Its about giving, sharing and most of all its about commitment to that one person and nobody else......
These sort of feeling you have to taste it for your own~~~ it would be better for self-experience~~
Friday, December 11, 2009
미안, 미안 :(
무슨 짓을 한거야?
당신은 멍청한 바보 아론!
To hurt someone's heart you saranghae~~
넌 멍청이야!
doing nothing right except trouble! - this is what my mum used to tell me~~~Am I that useless in this sorting out this sort of problem?
나 인정 내가 말을 잘 못하 오전 ~~
but can u give another chance to this stupid, forgetful,slow and ugly duckling another opportunity to understand you????
나도 몰라 만약 그녀가 이걸 읽고 오직 하나님을 알고 ~~~
미안합니다~~~
ごめなさい~~~
당신은 멍청한 바보 아론!
To hurt someone's heart you saranghae~~
넌 멍청이야!
doing nothing right except trouble! - this is what my mum used to tell me~~~Am I that useless in this sorting out this sort of problem?
나 인정 내가 말을 잘 못하 오전 ~~
but can u give another chance to this stupid, forgetful,slow and ugly duckling another opportunity to understand you????
나도 몰라 만약 그녀가 이걸 읽고 오직 하나님을 알고 ~~~
미안합니다~~~
ごめなさい~~~
Thursday, December 10, 2009
2H 1 L
Yesterday, her pm said " happiness last momentarily" and eventually, I asked her to share her problems or thoughts with me. In return, she replied "nth" but I know there's gotta be something which is bothering her~~
Do I really have to go back to square 1?
A friend of mine once shared with me, in a relationship there's an algebraic equation , 2H 1L which 2hearts 1 love~~~
H - help and look for each other
H - honest towards one another
L - love one another
In my case, I have tried my very best to achieve 2H 1L...
Although I admit, our relationship has some flaws and I wish to repair it ~ not alone but together with her~~ I wish our relationship would not be as though a TEST DRIVE~~ after you test drive, you just dump the car~ I don't want that to happen!
When she always reply nothing, it is equivalent to my failure and stupidity for not understanding her feelings, burdens and situation~~~As her bf, i m feeling a sense of overwhelmed guilt~ am i that useless?~~
Her blog had been deep silence for the past 3 months until recently she posted 3 new secured articles....
My conscious was telling me a wave is coming and it depends how strong our bond is...
I wished it would turn out good~~~and she would be ready to tell me everything~~
Love you,zhu~~
Do I really have to go back to square 1?
A friend of mine once shared with me, in a relationship there's an algebraic equation , 2H 1L which 2hearts 1 love~~~
H - help and look for each other
H - honest towards one another
L - love one another
In my case, I have tried my very best to achieve 2H 1L...
Although I admit, our relationship has some flaws and I wish to repair it ~ not alone but together with her~~ I wish our relationship would not be as though a TEST DRIVE~~ after you test drive, you just dump the car~ I don't want that to happen!
When she always reply nothing, it is equivalent to my failure and stupidity for not understanding her feelings, burdens and situation~~~As her bf, i m feeling a sense of overwhelmed guilt~ am i that useless?~~
Her blog had been deep silence for the past 3 months until recently she posted 3 new secured articles....
My conscious was telling me a wave is coming and it depends how strong our bond is...
I wished it would turn out good~~~and she would be ready to tell me everything~~
Love you,zhu~~
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
How to be happy for dummies~~~
Being happy for who you are, what you do, what you feel about yourself~~ that's the key point to your genuine happiness~ Maybe we ask ourselves ?? Are you currently living your life to the fullest? remember people, time is very precious, there's time is not an asset where you could invest and will grant you more time in return. Inevitably, time flies in a glimpse~~
Even though I had to admit there are some tough times in my current situation, still I would put a smile on my face~~~ its not being fake instead encouraging myself to be happy and optimistic~~~ This phrase has been told by someone and she says being simple is much better than complicated~~~ Based on my conscience, I believe surrounding can influence a person dynamically and therefore, its vital to know whats around you and the people you are mixing with~~
Accept The Fact That You Deserve To Be Happy.
If you personally don't think that you deserve to be happy, then no wonder you're not. The messages you give yourself determine what direction your life will take. If you are telling yourself that you are unworthy or don't deserve happiness, then how can you expect to be happy?
Accept Who You Are.
Being happy today is accepting who you are; the good, the bad and the ugly. It's knowing that you are doing the best you can do, and being content with that. I'm not saying to ignore what you'd like to improve in your life, but if you only see what's missing, you lose out on "loving" what's great about you.
Ask For Help.
Being happy means not keeping your problems to yourself. It also means that you ask for support when you need it, and let others contribute to your life. Most of us don't ask for help because we don't want to burden the people around us. But, if someone asked you for assistance, wouldn't you lend a helping hand? Then why wouldn't you let others do the same for you?
Helping your friends or someone
Being happy today is doing something nice for someone else or helping your friends. The joy of helping people calms your heart and eventually, your problems become smaller when you are not always thinking about them. When you take the focus off yourself, it is easier to see how great your life really is.
Quotes~~
Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it. ~Jacques Prévert
If you want to be happy, be. ~Leo Tolstoy
Happiness is never stopping to think if you are. ~Palmer Sondreal
Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy. ~Robert Anthony
The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up. ~Mark Twain
Even though I had to admit there are some tough times in my current situation, still I would put a smile on my face~~~ its not being fake instead encouraging myself to be happy and optimistic~~~ This phrase has been told by someone and she says being simple is much better than complicated~~~ Based on my conscience, I believe surrounding can influence a person dynamically and therefore, its vital to know whats around you and the people you are mixing with~~
Accept The Fact That You Deserve To Be Happy.
If you personally don't think that you deserve to be happy, then no wonder you're not. The messages you give yourself determine what direction your life will take. If you are telling yourself that you are unworthy or don't deserve happiness, then how can you expect to be happy?
Accept Who You Are.
Being happy today is accepting who you are; the good, the bad and the ugly. It's knowing that you are doing the best you can do, and being content with that. I'm not saying to ignore what you'd like to improve in your life, but if you only see what's missing, you lose out on "loving" what's great about you.
Ask For Help.
Being happy means not keeping your problems to yourself. It also means that you ask for support when you need it, and let others contribute to your life. Most of us don't ask for help because we don't want to burden the people around us. But, if someone asked you for assistance, wouldn't you lend a helping hand? Then why wouldn't you let others do the same for you?
Helping your friends or someone
Being happy today is doing something nice for someone else or helping your friends. The joy of helping people calms your heart and eventually, your problems become smaller when you are not always thinking about them. When you take the focus off yourself, it is easier to see how great your life really is.
Quotes~~
Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it. ~Jacques Prévert
If you want to be happy, be. ~Leo Tolstoy
Happiness is never stopping to think if you are. ~Palmer Sondreal
Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy. ~Robert Anthony
The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up. ~Mark Twain
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Just For you~~
~~~
The day when she gave me d necklace, my heart experienced an impact of shock and surprise. I would have never thought she would buy a couple's necklace for us~~
That short period of time when she was sneaking around, my curiosity was starting to develop as my heart was filled with anxiety~~~
Shortly, she wore the appealing necklace, a male’s symbol-like necklace with a light green flower as the main decoration and the phrase “I love you forever” around my neck while hers saying “me too”…
During that moment, I was mesmerized and touched by the precious gift which she had given to me; in addition, she even told me that she had waited for a stretched time to purchase that pair of necklace~~~
~~ Recently, she had shared with me her thoughts; stating two rules of hers which I respect~~~ Simultaneously, it had both positive and negative impact on me but my conscience and institution were telling me, it’s not the end but it was just the beginning. Therefore, to maintain our relationship, every wise decision and action to be taken are absolutely vital!!!~~~
~~~ Not long again, I had hurt another person’s heart ~~~
By right, she knows at present, my heart is filled with my darling already but still, a foolish gamble was taken by her~~ Why? You should know the consequences clearly if you had confessed and eventually asking me to leave my gf and to start off with you? you must be nuts~~~… I think I have stated this very clearly that once I LOVE a person, the flame never die which is residing within me.
I was thinking to myself, whether I should share this with my dear as it might be a sensitive issue for her~~~ who knows~~~ I had written this blog to express my hidden thoughts into words~~If by chance, when she sees this blog, I hope she could understand my situation and sincerity as I would do the same for her~~~
Aaron~~
The day when she gave me d necklace, my heart experienced an impact of shock and surprise. I would have never thought she would buy a couple's necklace for us~~
That short period of time when she was sneaking around, my curiosity was starting to develop as my heart was filled with anxiety~~~
Shortly, she wore the appealing necklace, a male’s symbol-like necklace with a light green flower as the main decoration and the phrase “I love you forever” around my neck while hers saying “me too”…
During that moment, I was mesmerized and touched by the precious gift which she had given to me; in addition, she even told me that she had waited for a stretched time to purchase that pair of necklace~~~
~~ Recently, she had shared with me her thoughts; stating two rules of hers which I respect~~~ Simultaneously, it had both positive and negative impact on me but my conscience and institution were telling me, it’s not the end but it was just the beginning. Therefore, to maintain our relationship, every wise decision and action to be taken are absolutely vital!!!~~~
~~~ Not long again, I had hurt another person’s heart ~~~
By right, she knows at present, my heart is filled with my darling already but still, a foolish gamble was taken by her~~ Why? You should know the consequences clearly if you had confessed and eventually asking me to leave my gf and to start off with you? you must be nuts~~~… I think I have stated this very clearly that once I LOVE a person, the flame never die which is residing within me.
I was thinking to myself, whether I should share this with my dear as it might be a sensitive issue for her~~~ who knows~~~ I had written this blog to express my hidden thoughts into words~~If by chance, when she sees this blog, I hope she could understand my situation and sincerity as I would do the same for her~~~
Aaron~~
Thursday, November 19, 2009
A mirror
Looking at her right now burdens my heart occasionally as she is replica of me...
I would strongly agree that her character is very similar to mine...
That's another reason why the more I should help her..
My friend is in trouble; disturbed by her problems, uncertainties and worries...
As she was sharing with me just now, my mind flashed back those times when I once underwent similar situations with her...
All I can do now is to provide morale support and encouraging her to do whats right...
First and foremost, I'm happy enough as she confronted me previously to share her thoughts and problems.... and I'm overjoy to help in return..
Dun give up yeah~~!!! rmbr the qoutes I gave u and I hope deeply you find them useful... Hwaiting~~!!!
LIFE's a climb but the view is great~~~~
I would strongly agree that her character is very similar to mine...
That's another reason why the more I should help her..
My friend is in trouble; disturbed by her problems, uncertainties and worries...
As she was sharing with me just now, my mind flashed back those times when I once underwent similar situations with her...
All I can do now is to provide morale support and encouraging her to do whats right...
First and foremost, I'm happy enough as she confronted me previously to share her thoughts and problems.... and I'm overjoy to help in return..
Dun give up yeah~~!!! rmbr the qoutes I gave u and I hope deeply you find them useful... Hwaiting~~!!!
LIFE's a climb but the view is great~~~~
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